At a last minute invitation last night, I went to a movie at the Esquire with a friend of mine. The movie had been recommended by another friend, and is called The Lives of Others, set in East Germany before the fall of the Wall. It didn’t feel right as I was paying for my ticket, but I decided to go ahead.
Once the first scene was underway, I knew I could not stay – that I didn’t want those images and attitudes in my brain – and that telling myself it was only a movie wasn’t going to help. So – first time I’ve ever done such a thing – I Just Left!
I haven’t watched the news on TV for years – never watched the Vietnam War that way, am not watching the horror that is Iraq, and am the only person in the country, I think, who never has seen the towers come down over and over. I’ve seen still photos, but not the video.
I think it’s important for all of us to be careful about what we choose to welcome into our minds.
And I also seem to be in a more sensitive time – smelling more and stronger aromas, more aware of and infringed on by noise, more easy to startle. During my mostly-daily drawing of a card from one of my various decks for intuitive support, I’ve drawn Sensitivity, Purification and Easy Does It over and over again the past couple of weeks.
So it wasn’t a thought-out logical decision that moved me out of the theatre last night. It was the accumulation of intuitive cues and awarenesses that got me out of my seat and out the door. I was surprised – and yet really enjoyed being outside, and had a great evening at home.
Right this minute, I am feeling pleased that I honored my own insights and met my own needs. And I’m glad I have you to share the story with.