Life is amazing! Here we are, beginning to come out of the Covid pandemic, where we’ve been at home most of the time, some family around, but mainly seeing people on zoom. My work and volunteer meetings are on zoom (or one of the myriad similar apps), my meditation group is on zoom twice a week, and my dream group is on zoom. We’ve really switched over rapidly, which has been good, and has kept us going.
And yet I’ve been totally busy through the whole time, and as life is now opening up so we can begin to go out to events and restaurants, and see people who haven’t been in sight for nearly a year, I feel busier than I ever have been in a long and busy life. I like to be part of everything, and I have many interests, both right-brained and left-brained, both work and volunteer. I always love to lead and love to follow, so there is much variety in my life, which makes me happy. And yet….
I now find myself doing tasks that do not feel like my work, and not being able to pass them along to wherever they need to go. I am agreeing to take on tasks that are needed on a given project, but are not what I want to be contributing to that particular project. I am not helping groups at the level I could be, and that is not making me happy. And I am not getting to my own priorities, though I’ve done lots of things to meet other folks priorities. I am just becoming clear about this, and will shortly be letting the groups and projects I’m connected to know more about what those priorities are.
For instance, I have written an excellent fundraising letter, and have been so busy working on mailings and stuffing envelopes that I have not been able to send out the 10 to 12 letters a day to my friends that I want to send out. Much of my healing and psychic work is not being pushed forward because I am helping the groups I belong to with various maintenance tasks. And my writing has dwindled because I am not prioritizing it. When I feel / believe that it is one of the reasons I am on the planet.
I know I am not the only person / woman with this problem. And I know I have contributions I want / need to make. It just has not felt like I am making those contributions, but am doing other groups’ work. I used to know, and teach groups, that there may not be as many volunteers as you want, but there are always enough volunteers to get that job done. Just find the way – it is there.
So, Patricia – accept your own teaching, and know that it is okay to do the work you are called on to do, and those other folks will find their ways to get their jobs done as well.